POETRY IN PREDICAMENT

I’ve been walking around all day,
Thinking.
I think I have a problem,
I think I think too much.
I’ve been taught to hold back my tears,
And avoid them.
But you make pain into something I could touch.

I’ve been walking around all day,
Laughing.
I think I’d be better off without you here.
And I bet you’re sweet and hard to get over.
So I’ll cry and people will stop and stare.
Now that’s okay.
Let them stop and stare.

Cause I am fragile.
I am hopeless.
I’m not perfect.
But I am free.

I’ve been walking around all day,
Waiting.
And waiting is all I seem to do.
Cause I never get it unless I’m fed it.
But this time i’ll just have to.
Yeah this time i’ll just have to.

And I’m fragile.
I am hopeless.
I’m not perfect.
But I am free.

Say you’re not around, Am I finished?
If you’re not around, thats too bad.
Hope youre safe and sound, not alone now.
Cause you know I believe in you.

I’m still fragile,
I’m still hopeless,
I’m not perfect,
But I am free.

And I’m fragile,
I am hopeless,
I’m not perfect,
But I am free.

Cause I am fragile,
hopeless,
I’m not perfect,
But I am free.

Just so recently I’ve discovered that I get fired once every 3 weeks… only to find myself working the next day.

I am starting to feel like there are people and things and dreams that are no longer worth pursuing.

And looking back I realized the things I shouldn’t have pursued… because they just don’t make sense, really.

But then those people and things that I have had and met are also the ones that had made me realize these things. Better to put it that way. And I just hate regrets.

It is indeed a mad world. So I’ll just wear my biggest grin =)

Don’t forget to wear yours.

If I have forever, I’d like to stay as a child.

I’d spend the rainy days beside my window,

I’d reach for the raindrops and sprinkle them on my face.

I’d go out and dance.

I’d make paper boats.

If I have forever, I wanna be in first grade over and over.

Every line and circles I’d draw,

Everything’s a first. Everything’s new.

I’d have apples and chocolate drinks on my lunchbox.

I’d wear pigtails too! =)

If I have forever, I’d take everything I want to my heart’s delight.

Strawberry jams, ham and cheese waffles, peach mango pies.

I’d down a tumbler of PikNik and a dozen blueberry Dutchmills.

If I have forever, I’d play all throughout the summer.

I’d climb trees and steal mangoes and guavas.

I’d tease the geese and let them chase me until I’m safe up a tree.

I’d pick black plums and eat ‘em til my lips turn black.

If I have forever, I’d write without using a scratch.

I’d pour all of my heart’s content and post them without fear.

I’d say a lot of things even all of my follies.

I won’t even erase or change a line.

If I have forever, I’d like to fall inlove and stay that way.

If forever’s what I have in my tiny li’l hands

I’d spend every morning making breakfast for him.

I’d make pancakes and sunny side ups.

I’d put gel on his brush =)

I’d end each day telling stories of how it’s been.

We’d stay young. We’d run around like kids.

If I have forever, I’d live the dream.

But forever’s a dream itself.

If you have forever in your hands,

HOW WOULD YOU SPEND IT?

How many times have you been told to cut some slack?

Or how many times have you said the same thing to someone?

Just so recently I’ve discovered that for the last couple of months and days I’ve been surrounded by pretty nice and wonderful people. People who tried (and are still trying) to convince me that I am worth their time and they are worth mine. People who came in my most boring days to give me some taste of their salad life. People I barely knew and who barely knew me who chose to unveil their pains and let me witness their tears. I was hearing myself giving an advice, saying things I should have said to myself. I was making others to realize some things I should have realized for my own. And at the end of every conversation I would end up saying, “It’s easier when you’re outside the looking glass.”

What’s inside your glass that you’ve never seen on someone else’s?

Yet we act like they are all new and unconquered.

What are the things you know but you haven’t really thought about? Maybe a lot to mention.

 

 

We know exactly how we wanted things to turn out, to end up but are too reluctant to alter our ways. So there goes the unpleasant result and most of us settle for just “getting used to it” and that because we are temporal beings we know things will eventually change. So little did we realize that time just ticks, every second is a piece of our lives we waste by just wishing and waiting for a better tomorrow.

Life is now, now!

So I encourage you to get up on your feet, live the life, don’t be scared.

What I’m saying might be inside your glass, so close and vast and you’re even immersed to think it’s possible to take gulps. But it is possible. I do not know. But the fact that we weren’t made and given life only to get doomed that’s where you’ll get the strength because you know there’s a way to get out of the rut you’re in. We just have to be ready.

And so I was preparing myself for the many realities to come, sure most of them are not the ones I want but they are the ones I need. Sure as they come I’d be confused and mad but eventually they will make me the person that I am destined to become. So I guess I should stop being reluctant to change my wrong ways if I really want things to turn out right.

And if I really care about now, I must ACT now.

I must learn how to forgive.

Loosen up.

I should smile more often.

Speak softly.

Listen harder.

Be more patient, I mean real patient without any stain of pretention.

And most of all… BELIEVE again, HOPE again.

And I just can’t be too cynical and pessimistic, no, not for me

And not for you too.